It makes her feel special. She told me tonight when I asked. I think that is good. I don’t feel special. I don’t feel m u ch at all anymore. I wonder if I will feel special ever again , ” full of magic” is how Stephen King puts it in Rose Madder. Ever since the affair I have wondered about being special. Until the day I found out, I thought I was special. Now I wonder if you think about me like I have thought about you. Should I even think about you? It is nice to think about you. I believe you could make me feel special again. There are a lot of ‘you’ in the world it would seem. Special….